Many times this week, I have thought I was going to see my sweet Jesus. I have had a terrible time with my stomach, and it is very unlike me to have to deal with this type of pain. I have tried to roll with the punches as much as possible but have collapsed with fear and become a complete mess at times as well. With tears streaming down my face, my hero of a husband has held me and given me that "we can do this" look.
On any other given week for me, I take for granted how healthy I am. Day to day, I just go and do and totally disregard how well my body works to enable me to accomplish all that I want and need to do. This week as I have been off my feet a lot, I have really thought about all that goes into our days here at home. Looking at what it takes to keep a household running has been quite overwhelming. I have had to let Scott do for me. He has been so willing. I have watched him fix meals, run and play with the kids, go grocery shopping, clean up, take the kids to the pool and do all the things I normally do for our family. I have felt cheated as I have watched him serve me. Oh how I love my job! How often, as mothers, do we say this? It is hard to utter at times. This week I can say it with passion, because I have sincerely missed it.
I am feeling a little better. I am hopeful that this soon shall pass. This week has challenged me to be thankful for good health. Hopefully, I will be well soon and able to run and do as normal.
Lord, thank you for the way you choose to grow me. As I have been scared and anxious, you have held me in those moments and given me strength. You know me and love me. I am thankful for the body you have given me. I want to take care of it and be ever grateful for the vessel you have entrusted me with.
I am thankful that my family can count on me for things. I am needed and that feels good. Thank you for the amazing task of being a mother, a wife, and a keeper of our home. So many times I get bogged down with mundane tasks. I am learning that you want me to savor even those moments. The life you have blessed me with is good and sweet. I am so grateful. I need you, Lord. I need your love and faithfulness. Keep me cradled in your love. Amen